March 12

Sorry for the delay since my last blog. I’ve had my last chemo treatment and it’s a good feeling. I can’t tell you how thrilling it is to know that I won’t have to go through those awful side effects again. Now it’s time to focus on my upcoming surgery, or not focus on it and just get through it. The more I think about it the more anxious I get so it’s probably best to stay so busy that I don’t have a lot of idle time to dwell on it too much.

It must have been weighing heavy on me the other night when I went to bed. I woke up at 5:30am after having a bad dream. In the dream I was visiting a zoo or park here in Florida with my sister Cheryl, her husband Larry and youngest daughter Carly. We had all stopped to look at this little pond with cute Flamingo birds when Larry and Carly decided to get closer to them so they jumped over the pond to the other side. Once they were over there, Cheryl and I realized that they had just landed in the middle of a bunch of alligators. We were screaming at them to jump back over to our side and didn’t see the one alligator on our side that was coming at us! Suddenly this huge one came at me and jumped up and bit off my cancer infected breast!! It was so bizarre that even while still asleep I had a sneaky feeling that it was a dream. Although I was pretty relieved when I woke up.

I guess that was my way of telling myself that even though I’m scared of the surgery it’s better than having an alligator bite off the cancer. Or the message could have been that I’m supposed to watch out for alligators when visiting local parks and zoos with my sister. I’m going with the first one which really tells me to put my faith in my doctor that does these surgeries all the time and that I will be cancer free and healthy when it’s all said and done. Next week, March 15th is the first surgery. Wish me luck!